Good Friday! No need to rush to wake up early or walk (at J's lightning walking speed) to class up the steep slope to lecture halls. It's nice to sleep without perspiring at night. Autumn has arrived. Temperature at night was 15 degrees yesterday. Cold for me, but still i'm going to enjoy every moment of it simply because winter is not yet here.
Have been doing more reflecting... What if i didn't get my textbook that very night? Was i going to be paralysed with anxiousness for the next few days? And applying it in a bigger picture, what's going to happen if i let my emotions run wild every time i meet a problem? Would i become unstable as long as i meet different crisis? Such a terrifying thought. Especially when i'm studying in the sciences, where we look at extrapolating empirical data and seeing what might happen in the future. Especially when i know that it's not supposed to be this way. I know I have God, who will never leave me nor forsake me. And i have the privilege of prayer, the confidence to be in his presence, and the assurance that he listens and will answer in his beautiful time.
Listened to Ravi Zacharias's audio sermon 'Why can't i feel my Faith?' last night and this morning. And he presents the challenge when emotions meets with information. That i have emotions which are very real and cannot be ignored, yet at the same time i have the knowledge of my God, and morality, so how do i put the two together and be able to live a life that is pleasing to God?
The answer is in the upward look towards God, where we have the confidence in the word - in the bible. When we seek God everyday so that we 'won't operate impulsively but with the sanctity of a heart seasoned by his reason' and keep conditioning ourselves not to be swayed by our emotions, but to be grounded in the word, followed by obedience with dying to our own self-centeredness and living a life for God's purposes.
Oswald Chambers - "There are things we must not pray about, moods for instance. Moods never go by praying. Moods go away by kicking. A mood nearly always has its seed in the physical condition, not in the moral condition. It is a continual effort to listen to moods which arise from a physical condition never to submit to them for a second. We have to take ourselves by the scruff of the neck and shake ourselves and we will find that we can do what we said we could not. The curse with most of us is that we won't. ... Unless we train our emotions, they will lead us by the nose, and we will be captives to every passing impulse or reaction. But once faith is trained to control the emotions, and know how to lean resolutely against weakness of Character, another entry way of doubt is sealed shut forever. Much of our distress as Christians comes not because sin, but because we are ignorant of the law of our own nature."
Proverbs 4:10-13 Listen, my son, accept what i say, and the years of your life will be many. I guide you in the way of wisdom and lead you along straight paths. When you walk, your steps will not be hampered; when you run, you will not stumble. Hold on to instruction, do not let it go; guard it well, for it is your life.
As Zacharias likes to say... "Such a fascinating thought!"
May i be able to bring a revelation into reality.